Why am I an utter failure?!?
Every now and then, when I open YouTube and start wasting time, I end up watching a video about hustling. You know these, right?
- Earn $1000 per MONTH by BLOGGING!
- How to make $10 000 per MONTH with DROPSHIPPING!
- How to make money Online!
etc.
And sometimes I start believing myself and decide to create a Medium account. And here I am.
Of course, if I’m particularly stubborn that time of the year, it takes about 3 days to give up, because it is too much work and there are no results whatsoever. Why bother.
That’s what happened when I tried making a print-on-demand shop with a shitty beard-mask, as well as when I bought a guitar with my first salary. Do you think I can play the guitar now?
Sometimes, however, I decide I’ll do something with the skills I already have. And start a hobby software project. You don’t want to know how many useless folders with little to no code I have on my computer. Forever forgotten unicorn apps and “the next Insert-Social-Network-Here”. Ugh!
You get the point. Hell, you probably nod furiously and shout “I feel you”, “Amen” or “That’s me!”. Why would you click on that title otherwise?
But I’m not here to insult you like that and just end it. I’m here to fail explaining why this happens.
Time
I have countless hobbies. You have probably already noticed.
I also have a job. I consider it one of the better ones out there, so I try to keep it. It’s hard.
Unlike some lawyers, who gained popularity lately, I am not a cat. I know, it’s a shame, but that’s the reality. I need at least 8 hours of sleep. What? Cats sleep 20 hours per day? Moving on…
I have chores to do. As I said, I’m not a cat — lucky little things. Showering, cooking, washing my clothes — it takes time.
So basically, I have like 4 hours per day for my megalomaniac projects. Pretty good, right?
Skill
I told you I’m going to fail explaining, right? Yes, this is because I lack some skills. I barely know how to keep a conversation going. What’s left for a consistent text over multiple paragraphs.
Also, have you seen my beard-mask? It has this on it:
If you start something new, you’re bad at it. I start a lot of new activities, so I’m bad at all of them.
Friends
I have some friends and I like meeting with them from time to time. You know, for a beer or two, maybe an ice cream. This takes time. Thankfully, lately it is forbidden across the entire world. Yay?
No one knows about the things I do
Thank god, no one knows about all these terrible ugly unfinished things I tried to make.
Please don’t tell anyone.
No, wait.
Is it really horrible if people know what you’ve done? Oh, they’re all useless junk. Even the ones that took 10 years to learn how to do?
Are you sure about that?
Right, 3 day expiry period. Hm. Maybe stick to one of them for a while? Even if it’s useless junk.
Brag about it
Yeah, I think I’ll be doing that. I’ll stick to a project and start bragging about every little thing I do, until I finish it. If I can even finish the project in pieces and let people have them if they want, that’ll be perfect.
Gain some skills
If I stick to one hobby, I might “git gud”, right? But I’ll keep bragging. And I prefer permanent solutions — blogs, recordings, etc.
This way I can go back and see exactly how terrible I was before.
Time is still a problem
I don’t have a solution here. It will take time. Deal with it. I sure can’t, but I’m not going to stop trying.
And you’re better than me, aren’t you? Prove it!
And come back to brag about it ;)
